letting you know more about my personality

Some of you may have seen my Facebook status today.

Well there are several things to conclude from this.

First, I’m actually going back to learning Spanish with my co-worker, Diana (mia peluchita! ^^) teaching very useful expressions! Well I’d never thought I’d be back to trying to master that tongue. I’d gone over to Italian; and for me this signed the end of Spanish (I could never do the ‘r’ anyway.) But here you go, I’m now even writing Spanish on Facebook now!

The other and perhaps more interesting bit is

                            what my Facebook status says about me.

(well I apologize for those who don’t want to know about me, you can stop reading the article now, because it won’t interest you!)

I discovered that I’ve changed. And I’ve changed quite a lot. For those who’ve known me for a long, long, LONG time, you might remember me as the shy little girl who struggled to please people and thought THEY were right and not me.

When people were mean about me, I took it as HUMILIATION and would feel broken hearted.

Not now. Oh not now anymore!

I’ve just been in such a situation. With someone saying shit about me. And the thing is, I don’t feel anger, I don’t feel pain and most of all I don’t feel SHAME!

I’m just laughing.

Laughing at how someone can be sufficiently pathetic to tell lies about me. Friends are telling me to be angry to put the whole world upside down until I get apologies.

Well, no.

That’s how much I’ve changed. I don’t care. I just don’t. And I don’t know why really, because I’m really a proud person. Like SERIOUSLY PROUD.

I don’t want to battle for an apology. It’s so absurd to be that pathetic that it gets over my head.

But mind you, though I’m laughing, I’m not easy to recover, far, far, far, FAR from it!

 (though if that person reads that post, I do doubt that that person would ever come to apologize!!)

But meanwhile I’ll just keep on laughing.

                                              Laughing is good.